Don’t forget to turn the Light on…

As some of you know, I am a father of four wonderful children. This weekend I stumbled across an unusual picture my 10 year old daughter Haven drew and left laying on the couch in our living room…it was unusual because it was messy, didn’t show off her abilities, and seemed more chaotic than artistic or purposeful:

Haven's sketch of our house (drawn in the dark)

I could tell that it was supposed to be our house but I knew she was capable of more and asked her what the story was regarding the picture.  She told me that she was working on an assignment for Awanas, a Bible study for kids that she attends on Wednesday nights.  She showed me the assignment:

And then she showed me her second picture:

Haven's sketch of our house (drawn in the light)

I thought this was an awesome idea for teaching kids what a difference God’s light can make in our lives.  I asked Haven to explain what the lesson was trying to teach and it was clear that she understood. 

Haven paraphrased: “When we try to do things our way we usually make a mess of things and we can’t see things the way they really are or the way they should be but when we turn to the Bible for help God shines his light on our lives and we can learn how to do things His way, which is much better than our way.”

I think the verse the lesson used on the next page was:

Psalm 119:105 – “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path”

Although it’s not quite in line with the point of the lesson, the verse that came to my mind was:

1 Corinthians 13:11-12 – “When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.

I am thankful that Haven shared this with me.  It made me stop and ask myself, “Am I drawing in the dark?”

1 Peter 2:9 – But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light

Haven reminded me that the Bible serves as a light to show us what our lives really look like.  We so often want to compare ourselves to others instead of comparing ourselves to God’s standard.  We typically look for someone that is more selfish than us, or mismanages their money worse than us, or lies more than us, or doesn’t help others as much as us (etc.).  It might not be so bad if we compared ourselves to people better than us but our natural tendency is to compare ourselves to the worst examples of human behavior and then we can make ourselves feel better about our poor choices and thoughts.   That’s what living in darkness is all about….it’s us deceiving ourselves and setting our own ‘standard’ (that we simply adjust as we see fit).  However, when we go to the Bible we see a perspective that makes clear the foolishness of our ways and that shines a clear light on the reality of who we are and who God wants to help us to be.

The Bible serves many purposes but one of the primary purposes is to teach us how to live an abundant life full of good deeds.  All we have to do is open the Bible and let God’s wisdom give light to our eyes:

Psalm 19:8 – The precepts of the LORD are right, giving joy to the heart. The commands of the LORD are radiant, giving light to the eyes.

Hot Coals From God’s Alter

How do you value your friendships and relationships? If there was one quality above all other qualities important to friendship what would it be? Love? Smile… Okay, I concede that one. But love must be living, it must be a living fountain of water extending from the Living God – or it cannot endure.

What is the most important element in friendship? What could not be gone without beyond all other things?

I once knew a girl in whom I observed these qualities: She was maybe the kindest person I have ever met. She was so kind that I think she actually made every person she interacted with feel loved – whether they were close, or an acquaintance, or even those she was meeting for the first time.

She was beautiful, intelligent, talented and most of all she loved God. She loved God enthusiastically with her whole heart! She enjoyed worshiping God and would always be quick to dance in praise to Him at every worship opportunity. She seemed to hold nothing back.

She also invested herself in prayer and participated in leading prayer and worship meetings.

She was one of many leaders who found in their gift the place to lead and raise their voice in praise to God through spontaneous worship music – that is music that is both spontaneously not a pre-existing song, but a new song, with new words which are sung as worship and prayer to God – and in some places when God and his people draw close, even become through the Holy Spirit prophetic expressions received back from God to his people.

She seemed to have a heart fully bent toward God and dwelling in his presence – close to his heart and throne – to see and bring joy to his countenance and receiving the same in return.

Though I would not go so far as to say that God has favorites in any exclusive way, the best imagination of her position before God was as a favorite daughter who having completely won her father’s heart, trust and favor could if she were to ask have anything her heart desired from his throne room.

And here my imagination runs away with me… it seemed from my position that her favorite thing to do was to request hot coals from God’s alter – coals of revelation of God’s love, and joy, and peace, and forgiveness, and mercy, and grace, and beauty, and provision, and righteousness, and holiness, and even Eternal life! …and to bring those coals to others – to friends, family, acquaintances, the lost, to anyone willing to receive!

I cannot imagine a greater gift! …and I am blessed to know others who follow this same pattern.

Is there any other food we can less do without in life?

“Love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and mind, and soul, and strength,” and “love thy neighbor as thyself.” These are the two great commandments.

Do have friends who bring you hot coals from God’s alter? Regularly? Have you ever received a hot coal from God’s alter that you were able to share with your friends? Do you often bring your friends hot coals? What about all of your relationships? Even with those who are only acquaintances, are hot coals exchanged between you?

This is my desire. I want my friendships to be those that exchange hot coals from God’s alter! Whether it be my closest friend with whom I interact daily or the acquaintance I exchange words with only once in my life time – this is the thing I hold most precious.

What do you hold most precious?

How God Speaks

Have you heard his voice lately? We had some friends stay with us over the Christmas break and I got into an interesting conversation with their 8 year old about how do you know when God is talking to you.

Of Course I believe that God speaks through a variety of ways: The Bible, the counsel of godly friends, parents, experience, occasional donkeys, etc. But I also have experienced His still soft voice sharing things with me. Sometimes they are seemingly insignificant – like how many people to expect for a weekend gatherings, sometimes they are huge – like warning us about a dangerous spiritual leader, sometimes it doesn’t make sense – like leading us to move to another State, and sometimes it is just telling me no – like building a pool (all examples are real.) God confirms the things he shows me sometimes right away, sometimes six months later, sometimes years later. God, also often gives my wife the same, “impressions” (I like that the best.)

Lately, I have been discerning God’s voice more and more – which thrills me, but also begs the question, the same one our 8 year old house guest asked, how do I know it is God speaking. I explained that it is kind of like talking to someone on the phone. The more you do the easier it is to recognize the voice. This confused her and she wanted to know if I heard an audible voice. I don’t. It is generally more of an impression. God has been confirming those impressions lately so I am learning to focus in more on the difference between my thoughts and His.

So how about you? Do you hear from God, and if so how do you know it is Him?

Christmas – Why our family participates (despite the pagan influences)

GrinchThis post is in response to Drew’s recent post called “Pagan Christmas” but you should also read my previous post on Halloween before you read this post if you want a complete perspective.

I agreed with most everything Drew said in the first paragraph.  There are, of course, many variations on the history depending on the source you reference but I didn’t see anything in Drew’s first section that I hadn’t read before and I have no additional comments.  It’s the paragraph that starts with “I have a few friends” that I would like to comment on:

(Drew’s words are in red and mine are in green)

I have a few friends that don’t celebrate Halloween in regards to its pagan nature and see no value in it. Even though Halloween brings communities together, makes kids laugh, multiplies candy, belittles evil, and is fun, celebrating such a holiday appears to question their moral Christian principles.

My wife and I are some of those friends and yes, we see no value in Halloween.  I address each of the reasons Drew gives as “even though”s in my Halloween post so I am not going to redo that here.  Halloween does not make me question “moral Christian Principles”, it just provides an excellent opportunity to practice them.  ;-)   Please read my Halloween post for a full explanation.

I wonder if the Church had decided to incorporate Samhain (pagan holiday) and Christ’s birth if some Christians would be more apt to celebrate the holiday of Halloween.

The church has already done that…its called “All Saints Day”.  The answer is no, it didn’t make me more apt to celebrate Halloween.  Just because the church sanctions an event doesn’t mean it is worth celebrating or not worth celebrating.  We have to decide for ourselves what we should participate in.  Many churches now celebrate Halloween…in fact, all of the churches I went to growing up celebrated Halloween in some form or another.  I decided to stop ‘celebrating’ because I thought the issues through for myself and my conclusion is fully explained in my Halloween post.

Note: In my Halloween post I don’t mention ‘pagan origins’ as one of the five reasons why I don’t participate….”I am not nearly as interested in the history of Halloween as in what it means today” – the same applies to Christmas symbols and traditions.

It does seem that Christmas (probably due to its commercial push and the multitude of Christian sheep corralled into the stalls of justification) is viewed primarily as a Christian Holiday, and therefore most Christians can celebrate the holiday without a sered conscious.

A sad ChristmasI have to confess (regarding the seared conscience), my wife and I have struggled with whether or not to celebrate Christmas for several years.  Christmas has become such a commercial enterprise and Santa has nearly completely replaced Christ as the focus of Christmas, at least in the malls, public school plays, and around the office.  Christmas was not celebrated by the early church and many of the symbols of Christmas can be traced back to pagan rituals.  To be honest, my wife and I are still sorting this out and don’t feel like we have reached closure (mostly because we don’t agree yet…usually means I’m wrong but rationalizing in my mind so I don’t have to see things the way they really are or the way God sees them).  We actually got rid of the Christmas tree a couple years ago and didn’t celebrate Christmas, at least not in the traditional way.  We simply read the Christmas story and tried to focus on helping others (like the original Saint Nicholas).   My family still enjoyed Christmas and it was nice focusing on others but I felt like there wasn’t as much joy and happiness in my home as previous years.  I decided the following year to start celebrating Christmas again for the inverse reasons of why I don’t celebrate Halloween.

I started off my post about Halloween by explaining that even if I didn’t have religious reasons I would still not celebrate the holiday.  The opposite is true of Christmas.  Even if I wasn’t a Christian, I would still see the value in a holiday that celebrates love, family, giving, friends, happiness, beauty, etc.  The whole tone of Christmas is nearly the opposite of Halloween.  I wish I had a picture of some houses in my neighborhood from earlier this year.  One in particular was covered in symbols of evil – demons, zombies, decapitations, blood, and ghosts.  Now, just months later, that house is not decorated at all, but the house next door is decorated with beautiful lights, a smiling Santa Claus, and other symbols of friendship, love, and happiness.

NewPerspectiveDon’t get me wrong, I don’t agree with the materialism, deifying a magical Santa, or other facets of ‘X-mas’ that draw our attention away from Christ.  However, the reason I decided to continue celebrating Christmas and the reason we have put up a Christmas tree this year is because for me personally, Christmas draws my attention back to Christ.  When I see a Christmas tree I think of Christ.  When I sing the famous Christmas carols I think of Christ.  When my family gathers and shares gifts with each other I think of Christ.  I think we each have to ask ourselves:

1.  What are our motivations for the things we do?

2.  What is valuable and worth supporting?

3.  Do we believe what we plan to do will glorify God.

For this reason, I am not upset when someone else chooses to celebrate Halloween, or Christmas, or Hanukkah, or whatever.  If they believe their motivations are right, that there is value in observing the holiday, and that observing it edifies God, then who am I to disagree…it is between them and God.  For me, I can celebrate the birth of Christ (labeled as Christmas) confidently with those 3 questions in mind…I can not do the same for Halloween.

I suppose (once again) it’s all the Church’s fault.

We are the church.  It’s our fault as individuals.  We have encouraged the whole process all along by singing about Santa, buying gifts beyond our means and with wrong motivations, and submitting to the political correctness of the media and the marketing schemes to promote consumerism.  No worries though…the bible doesn’t forbid or require us to celebrate Christmas so there is nothing to lose.  If Christmas is eventually completely lost in materialism and emptiness it doesn’t change the reality of Christ. If we lose Christmas we have lost nothing.  If we lose Christ we have lost everything.

“Glory to God in the highest and on earth, peace and goodwill towards men.”

Merry Christmas, BoB


Merry Christmas

Religious Question of the Month #003

Why do Christians argue so violantly over trivial issues?  If you really want to have a good laugh and be broken harted all at the same time go look at just about ANY youtube video that has something to do with Religion and there will be a whole slew of people ALLCAPS YELLING and slandering each other to prove thier point…  This is most definately one of the top 10 most frusterating things I have delt with in the Christian church.

1Co 13:2  I may have the gift of inspired preaching; I may have all knowledge and understand all secrets; I may have all the faith needed to move mountains—but if I have no love, I am nothing.
1Co 13:3  I may give away everything I have, and even give up my body to be burned —but if I have no love, this does me no good.
1Co 13:4  Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud;
1Co 13:5  love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs;

Jesus himself said this

Joh 13:35  By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”

I’ve always thought is was cool that he didn’t say things like:  signs and wonders, abilty to move crowds with words,  suits and ties, financial status, church status etc etc…  But if I look a good portion of the church that I have delt with\ experienced I don’t really see love for one another or “always considering others better than yourselves.” Php 2:3

There are many many more scriptures to be used on the matter so feel free to post some more.   Or disagree for that matter!  BUT NO ALLCAPS YELLING ZOMG!?!

I’ll give an example here is a conversation between two people concerning a Bethel video on www.Youtube.com

Apologist117 says: The people at Bethel are worldly, materialistic and superficial. Modern Evangelicalism is marked by designer clothing and all forms of impiety. They live for themselves and are just looking for something to entertain them and make them feel good. They are not serious about God. The newer generation thinks this is normal and Christian because it’s all they’ve ever known. They have no sense of history and authentic otherworldly Christianity.

ibetheltv replys with: So you must know these people you are talking about since you talk with such authority and decisiveness. Since I do, I know one thing…. you don’t.
They are VERY serious about God, they live only to please Him. I pray that you become hungry for more, that God will fill the void with a genuine relationship with himself.

Apologist117 says: You are inpressed by people like this because you don’t know any better. These kind of people are not dead to the world, flesh and devil. We know how they are because of how they live (for themselves). You will never reach your full spiritual potential if you listen to people and pseudo-churches like Bethel. They are materialistic and know nothing about self-crucifiction and death to the lower carnal man.

That just screams love doesn’t it!!  Oh wait, No It doesn’t….

Sometimes Love is willingness to be wrong without defense.

What’s on Bethany’s mind: What does God “highly esteem”?

SuccessI came across this in my reading today, and the second part of the verse really jumped out at me.

Luke 16:15  And he said unto them, Ye are they which justify yourselves before men; but God knoweth your hearts: for that which is highly esteemed among men is an abomination in the sight of God.

So what do you all think “for that which is highly esteemed among men” is referring to?  Hmm . . . things highly esteemed among men . . .

I asked my older two children to name some things they think are highly esteemed by men.  It was interesting to hear from a child’s perspective what they think are the most valued things by adults.  Here are some of their answers:

Fame (For Being an Athlete, Movie Star, Politician, or Really Smart Person)

Wealth (Fancy House, Fancy Cars, Expensive Jewelry)

Success (Everyone thinks you rock)

Sports

Fitness

Good Looks

Love

Center of Attention

Career

Wardrobe

Glamorous Lifestyle (Travel, Fine Dining, Yachts)

So anyway,  it got me to thinking.  We are so “programmed”  and brainwashed by our culture to value the same things the rest of the “world” values.  It makes me wonder . . .  how much of what we are unconsciously ( and even worse, CONSCIOUSLY) striving for does the Lord see as an abomination?  I have a feeling that most of what we place importance on God sees as idols in our lives.  I am wondering from all of you, what do YOU think this verse means?  What do YOU think ” the things highly esteemed by man”  in the verse is referring to?  What do you think God “highly esteems”?


Faith Theology Dynamics vs. Healthy Relationship Dynamics

Check out the guy's faith bicep!

Check out that guy's faith bicep!

In Luke 4:18-19 Jesus reads from Isaiah 61 and declares His purpose:  “The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”

Ephesians 4:11-16  “It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, to prepare God’s people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ. Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.”

I have long struggled with some of the concepts of faith theology.  I ask myself what is the motivation?  And, is that the way real relationships are supposed to work?

I have chosen five faith theology concepts which bring questions to my mind:

Concept One:  Claiming.  This is the institution whereby faith theology practitioners, based on the concept that Jesus in his death and resurrection immediately reclaimed for believers all the fruit of a fully reconciled relationship with God, can simply by faith claim any “good thing” for which they feel they want or need.

Concept Two:  Believing.  This is the practice whereby faith theology adherents follow such scriptures as Matthew 21:22 “If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer,” as stand alone scriptures to ask for something from God, and in the truest sense of a verb begin actively “believing” they will receive their request as the primary catalytic or generative element of the receiving process.

Concept Three:  Multiplication / Sowing and Reaping.  This is the idea based on scriptures such as Galatians 6:7  “…A man reaps what he sows,” Mark 4:8, “…multiplying thirty, sixty, or… a hundred times,” John 12:24 “…if [a seed] dies it produces many seeds,” Luke 6:38, “Give and it will be given to you…” and Matthew 25:15-30 that something does not come from nothing – that in order to reap a harvest a farmer for example must first plant a seed, and further that children of God who plant seeds can expect to receive back their investments multiplied multiple times.

Concept Four:  Repetition.  This is the belief and practice based on scriptures such as Romans 10:17 “…faith comes from hearing..,” 1 Thessalonians 5:17 “pray continually,” and to some extent the story of the persistent widow Luke 18:2-8 in which a believer’s faith in a scripture or positive confession is believed to be strengthened through consistent repetition of the scripture or confession.

Concept Five:  Faith Pledges.  This is the practice of making a (usually) financial pledge to God toward a certain cause in which the pledger generally does not immediately have the financial means to fulfill the pledge, but believes “in faith” that they can make a valid positive confession or that God has led them to pledge the specified amount and will in fact within the specified time frame specially supply that amount to them so that they can then return it to fulfill their pledge.

It is possible that these concepts might be identified or expounded upon with greater clarity, but hopefully these are reasonable working explanations.  The question I now want to posit is what would happened if each of these concepts were to be put into practice in our human and family relationships?  I have constructed a scenario for each concept:

Concept One:  Claiming.  What would happen if family members adopting the faith theology dynamic of “claiming” began “claiming” gifts, favors and services from one another rather than asking?  What is the likely outcome of thirteen year old James deciding to “claim” (without asking or waiting to receive permission) the family vehicle and funding from Dad’s wallet to buy movie tickets for double feature night at the movie theater for he and four of his friends?  Do any problems present themselves in this scenario?  Can James safely and legally drive?  Does Dad intend to use the money in his wallet for a different purpose?  Is that the most beneficial use of James time on a school night?   And… does James “claiming” allow positive room for two way communication and the receiving of wisdom and feedback from his father, or respect his father’s right to say “no?”

Concept Two:  Believing.  In the friendly negotiation of family vacation destinations two available options are the mountains and the beach.  Having been to the mountains last winter Jan wants to go to the beach this summer.  Dan, however, really likes the mountains and would like go to the mountains every vacation.  So, since he knows that family vacations are negotiated Dan asks Jan to change her mind and to choose the mountains again rather than the beach.  Then, since Dan is an adherent of the faith theology dynamic of “believing,” Dan feeling that he can make certain things happen by “believing” begins to “believe” that Jan will change her mind.  Is there a problem here?  What Dan wants is something that has to do not with himself alone, but also Jan.  What he wants he cannot directly accomplish by himself alone.  Dan can choose his tastes and preferences but he cannot choose Jan’s for her.  If Jan had told Dan that she also wanted to go to the mountains Dan could choose, based on his knowledge of her, to “believe” that is what Jan really wanted.  But, for Dan to choose to “believe” that Jan would change to his choice after Jan has expressed a different preference, or in the case that Dan had not first investigated Jan’s preference at all, is for Dan to not place value or importance in Jan’s preferences.  Is it appropriate to “believe” (in a catalytic or generative way) something requiring another person’s participation that defies or does not even investigate their desires?

Concept Three:  Multiplication / Sowing and Reaping.  Tom’s eight year old son, Joshua has really excitedly asked for a bicycle for his birthday.  Money is a little tight for the family right now, but Tom does have the one hundred dollars necessary to buy Joshua a bicycle.  However, Tom has also been wanting a new one thousand dollar hunting rifle which he cannot afford.  Joshua’s request becomes just what Tom needs.  Since Tom is a believer in the faith theology dynamics of multiplication and sowing and reaping, Tom immediately realizes that he can plant a seed of one hundred dollars to buy Joshua a bicycle, and then via multiplication receive back “tenfold” his investment in a bicycle for Joshua to reap the one thousand dollars he needs to purchase a new rifle for himself.  What does this say about what Tom values?  Would Tom choose to buy Joshua a bicycle if he knew he would not receive back the multiplication necessary for his rifle?  Is that important?  What if at an earlier point in life Tom had operated from the same perspective to buy a two thousand dollar engagement ring for his wife, so he could then purchase a twenty thousand dollar fishing boat for himself?

Concept Four:  Repetition.  Suppose George wants to get married and meets a great girl named Sara.  After meeting Sara, George thinks to himself, “Sara is a great candidate for a wife.”  So, being a practitioner of the faith theology dynamic of repetition George decides he wants to marry Sara and begins repeating to himself daily, “I am going to marry Sara.”  When a first date does not go well, Sara decides that another date would not be wise.  But George has become convinced he is going to marry Sara and keeps repeating to himself, “I am going to marry Sara.”  A year later after George has invested a lot of energy in repeating to himself, “I am going to marry Sara,” he learns via wedding invitation that Sara is engaged to marry her home town sweetheart Charles.  After the wedding George, being a gentleman is happy for the couple, but struggles with the question, “how did Sara marry Charles when I ‘knew’ she was going to marry me?”  In what sense did George “know” Sara was going to marry him?  Was it on the basis of an honest and truth based relationship with Sara?

Concept Five:  Faith Pledges.  Imagine your good friend Phil has found a really great group travel deal for a summer vacation.  This travel deal is such a great price to such a great place that Phil commits to the agent to buy the whole twenty ticket package even knowing that he cannot alone cover the expense.  Phil is a believer in the faith theology practice of faith pledges and through this practice he really believes he will come up with the money for the trip.  So, in his enthusiasm Phil returns home and gathers all his friends and tells them of this great but expensive deal he has arranged for everyone’s summer vacation.  Then explaining that he has already committed to this package he asks each of his friends to make a “faith pledge” to come up with and pay for their individual shares for this summer trip to see and stay in ten chateaus in the French countryside.   Hearing Phil’s enthusiasm and description of the trip you become caught up in the idea and make a pledge which is beyond your practical means to pay for your families share in the trip.  At the end of the first pledge month reality begins to set in when paying the bills you realize you will have to tap into your family’s savings and eliminate entertainment from next month’s budget to cover this month’s pledge.  That is a bit expensive but the trip still sounds great.  When the end of the next month comes along you become shocked when you realize that since you have not inherited any unexpected funds you will have to completely exhaust your savings and leave a balance on your credit card to pay the currently due portion of your pledge.  Feeling that this is not an acceptable option for your family, you choose not to pay this month’s pledge portion and hope that next month something better might work out.  However, seeing Phil the next day you now have this nagging feeling that you “owe” him and the trip and everyone this amount of money which you cannot currently pay.  Is this debt feeling where you should be?  Has Phil as an influential leader in his friends lives used his influence to lead his friends into bondage?  If this scenario continues is it likely to affect the relationship between Phil and his friends?

Proverbs 16:2  “All a man’s ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the LORD.”

It may be that these scenarios immediately and easily represent relational dynamic difficulties that are also easily seen as problems in relating to God.  But if not let’s look at the use of the samefaith theology dynamics in our relating to God.

Concept One:  Claiming.  Perhaps you have heard a voice in a prayer meeting or a fellowship gathering speak, “I claim victory in Jesus name,” or “I claim healing in Jesus name,” or “I claim salvation for… in Jesus name?”  Or, perhaps in other contexts you may have even heard statements such as, “I claim financial blessing in Jesus name,” or “I claim wealth from the storehouses of God in Jesus name?”

There is some question between proponents and challengers of faith theology as to whether or not each of these items are in scripture immediately promised to those who have faith, and there are many scriptures addressing each side, but regardless of the application of faith and settling on the specifics of scripture promises it is important to note that all scriptures directed at the topic of receiving from God by faith use the term “ask,” not “claim.”  Matthew 7:7  Matthew 21:22  Mark 11:24  John 14:13,14,16  John 15:7,16  John 16:23, 24, 26

What is the significance of asking versus claiming?  The difference is in how many parties actually have a “say so” in a matter.  A claimer gives no party other than himself input, he simply makes an assertion in which he is at best being informative to other parties.  An asker, however, acknowledges another parties input in a matter.  An asker acknowledges that there is an outcome which is not set, and that the one who is asked has a choice in that outcome and how to answer a request… “Yes;” “No;” “Yes, but not today;” “No, but how about this instead?”   An asker is humble and acknowledges that his/her control over an outcome is limited and dependent on the input of the one asked, and not on themselves alone.

Just as James has a father who loves him, and is knowledgeable and experienced and has more resources at his disposal than does James – so we have a Father in Heaven, who loves us, and is omniscient and omnipotent.  If this is really our situation, in who’s hands does it seem better for the weight of the determination in an outcome of a matter to rest?  If we or James think it should rest on ourselves do we really expect to be able to enforce our less informed choices on the will of God or our father?  Could that possibly be good?

Concept Two:  Believing.  “I am believing God for a miracle… healing, a wife, revival, salvation, a husband, financial breakthrough, deliverance, blessing, favor.”  These are common phrases in many parts of the Church.  What does it mean to say, “I am believing God for a miracle?”  Does it mean I am hoping for a miracle?  Does it mean I am asking God for a miracle?  Does it mean I want a miracle?  Does it mean I know God is going to perform a miracle?  Does it mean I am going to use my faith bicep to make a miracle happen?  Does it mean that I believe God is going to perform a miracle because that is what I want Him to do, even though He has made no mention of it?  Or, does it mean that God has promised me the miracle that I am believing for and I am therefore trusting that He will fulfill His promise, just as He fulfilled the promise He made to Abraham?  If your answer is “faith bicep” please understand that you mean one of two things; either that you believe that your faith is an actual tangible power like magic or a superpower so that you can entirely accomplish the miracle yourself, or that what you really mean is that you can make God perform a miracle – since you acknowledge that you obviously do not directly have such powers yourself.

Relationship is two-way.  You can believe that the sky is clear and that rocks are hard without involving others.  But just as with Dan believing that Jan will choose to go to the mountains again, if you are believing God for a miracle either your faith is a type of power that can make God do what you want, or there has been communication between you and God such that you have received a promise from Him, or, unless you just happen to be believing something God either intended or is allowing the Enemy, nothing will happen because your believing is not a power but only the ability to trust in a promise from God which you have not received.  Remember, relationship and communication are two-way.  If believing is a power then you do not need God to exact miracles, but if it is not a power then God invites communication, Isaiah 1:18 “Come let us reason together….”  And remember his conversation with Abraham over the destruction of Sodom… He listens.

Concept Three:  Multiplication / Sowing and Reaping.  Ecclesiastes 11:1, 2  “Cast your bread upon the waters, for after many days you will find it again.  Give portions to seven, yes to eight….”  Luke 6:38  “Give and it will be given to you.  A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap.  For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”  These are great words.  They are not meant to be a formula, yet they are true.

But where is the focus?  Is it on the giving or the receiving?  And where do we give?  Does God need my money?  If I give to a missionary do I give to him or her because they are doing work I believe in and want to contribute to, or do I give because I want a financial return on my money?  If I knew I would get no financial return on my money would I still give?  If the hungry are unfed and the poor are unclothed, do I give so I can multiply my bank account or because I want the hungry to have food and the poor clothed?  It is one thing to say that it is right to use our resources to feed the hungry even if there is no financial reward for doing so, but even more potent in the case of the giver is the question of which is more satisfying, to know the poor are fed, or to have my finances multiplied?!  It is the same with Tom and his son Joshua.  Does Tom buy Joshua a bicycle because he loves Joshua and wants to bring his son happiness?  Or does he buy Joshua a bicycle as a means to gain his own wants?  Which is the more deeply satisfying reward?  Which is the more highly motivating?  Should appeals to our giving be made to our self indulgence, or to loving our neighbor, the worthiness of an endeavor, and good judgment?  What if giving is sacrificial?  What if in order to give to another’s need I must go without my want or need?  2:3-4  Galatians 5:14

Acts 20:35  “… ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’”

Concept Four:  Repetition.  It is true as Romans 10:17 says, we cannot believe the Gospel if we have not heard it.  And, it is true that sometimes we forget things that we are not reminded of – even our beliefs.  Deuteronomy 6:8  “Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads.”  But repetition is not always appropriate – Matthew 6:7-8  “And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words.  Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.”  Repeating something you have trouble believing will not necessarily enable you to believe whatever it is you are repeating in a healthy sense, but for practical purposes it can brainwash you.  Brainwashing is not an alien concept it is utilized in many forms through repetitive advertising, and repeated dogma and forced supplications under conditions of torture and extreme duress and/or sometimes drug inducement by military and cult groups.  I have myself thought something a certain way for so long that only through prayerful reflection was I able to realize it was not as I had painted it in my mind.  But repetition does not create reality or true faith.  Faith is based on relationship.  We are able to have faith in someone because we trust their character.  We know their character because they demonstrate it to us by their actions.  If I decide to make and repeat a positive confession that I am God’s number one prayer and prophetic watchman in my town, it does not make me so, no matter how many times I repeat it.  Like George repeating “I am going to marry Sara,” yet not being in communication with her, confessing that I am God’s number one prayer and prophetic watchman is something that can only occur within an honest, diligent, truth based and two-way relationship with God; and walk in His calling on my life.  I may be able to succeed in making myself think I am God’s number one watchman, but that is not equivalent to believing, in relationship, God’s calling on my life.

Concept Five:  Faith Pledges.  Faith pledges are a not uncommon fund raising technique in many parts of the Church.  Fund raising is carried out for mission trips, for buildings, for television programs, for radio programs, for orphanages, for youth camps and a plethora of other causes.  Fund raising is an established practice, it has been done for religious causes throughout history as well as many charitable causes today.  David and Solomon did it for the Temple of the Lord, as did some of the family heads that returned to Jerusalem with Ezra, in his time.  But faith pledges are not simply fund raising.  Faith pledges are a specific type of fund raising.  In faith pledging a pledger does not merely give what he or she does have, as Paul exhorts in 1 Corinthians 16:2  “…set aside a sum of money in keeping with your income,” and 2 Corinthians 8:12  “…according to what one has, not according to what he does not have,” more specifically a faith pledger pledges what they do not have.  And this in the belief that it is an exercise of faith to commit oneself to something that cannot easily be fulfill without God’s help.  I know of no Scriptural examples of this.  But usually the commitment is framed in the form of a financial pledge “to God” and is encouraged by a leader or pledge driver/seeker who gives examples of desirable pledge amounts, often through examples of what others have pledged, or in sample written amounts, or the suggestion to ask God to speak an amount to the pledger.  It is possible for a lone individual to make such a pledge, but more often faith pledges involve both pledge makers and pledge seekers.  A pledge seeker collects pledges and a pledge maker gives pledges.  But why faith pledges rather than more traditional donations in keeping with one’s immediate ability?  Is it to build faith?  To receive a multiplication?  Is it God’s direction?  Is it desperation?  Or, is it because the amount needed is very great?  Or, possibly an already incurred debt?  Or, to fulfill a dream?  It is right for both the pledge seeker and pledge maker to ask themselves such questions.

In the case that God has directed pledge seekers to seek faith pledges, and pledge makers to make faith pledges, the outcome should fall easily within the provision of His abundance and grace.  But if faith pledging is not God’s intention, what are the consequences?  Has there been presumption without communication?  Has the pledge seeker misused his influence?  Have the pledge maker and pledge seeker been moved by the wrong motivations?

And, lastly, is the the same God who said, Matthew 6:34  “…do not worry about tomorrow,” James 4:13-16  “do not boast about tomorrow,”  Romans 13:8  “Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love…” Matthew 6:24  “No one can serve two masters…” and who gave His people the year of Jubilee to deliver them from debt, now desiring to draw us into a new financial debt relationship with Him?

Like Bono abbreviates, “the God I believe in is not short of cash,” Psalms 50:9-10 declares God’s abundance, “I have no need of a bull from your stall or goats from your pens, for every animal of the forest is mine, and the cattle on a thousand hills.”

Why should we contort ourselves in debt God may not be asking of us?

Motives and motivations?  What makes us tick?  Why do we do the things we do?  When I consider faith theology dynamics I ask myself this question of each concept.  In each of the human relationship scenarios what is the motive for action?  Is it love?  Is it justice?  Is it compassion?  What is God’s motivation in relating to us?

The human relationship scenarios are obviously designed to incorporate and illustrate difficulties, but does an understanding of absurdity in trying to apply these dynamics in our human relationships come through?  And, would we use these dynamics in our relationship with God?

Jesus declared the two greatest commandments:

Mark 12:30  “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your mind and with all your soul and with all your strength.”

Mark 12:31  “…Love your neighbor as yourself….”

There is one guiding principle which underlies all healthy relationships – love.  It is the same standard with God as it is with men.

1 Corinthians 13 gives an excellent treatise on love and it’s behavior:

“If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.  If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.  If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.  Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails.  But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.  we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.  I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.  Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.  now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.”

As do also:

John 15:13  “Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.”

Philippians 2:3-4  “Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourself.  Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.”

Galatians 5:13-14  “You my brothers, were called to be free.  But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature; rather, serve one another in love….”

Rom 13:7-10  “Give everyone what you owe him: If you owe taxes, pay taxes; if revenue, then revenue; if respect, then respect; if honor, then honor.  Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law.  The commandments, ‘Do not commit adultery,’ ‘Do not murder,’ ‘Do not steal,’ ‘Do not covet,’ and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’  Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.”

And how does God describe His motivation in relating to us?

Jeremiah 29:11  “’For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.’”

Jeremiah 31:3  “…I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.”

John 3:16  “For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

How does this compare to the motivations of the players in each of the human relationship scenarios?

James wants money and transportation.  Dan wants Jan to want what he wants.  Tom wants money to buy himself a rifle.  George wants Sara to marry him.  Phil wants a financial commitment from his friends – and his friends want God to fulfill their financial commitments.

What is the common thread here?  The common thread is that they all “want” something.  They either want money or a material possession, or for another person to follow of their desires.

Deliberate though these sample scenarios may be, never is there a primary motivation or pursuit by any of the participants of:  “What can I do for someone else?”  Or, “How can I make my son happy?”  Or, “How can I bless my wife?”  Or, “What can I do for my friends or family?”  In each case it is individualized focus on what “I want.”  Or, in the case of Phil and his few friends possibly becoming what “we want” as a small group.  Never is it “how can I love my neighbor” – without looking for an outside return.

Were these concept scenarios examples of healthy relationship dynamics?  (or unhealthy?)

And what of the spiritual, God directed application of the faith dynamic concepts?  Are they healthy?

If these dynamics are unusable in our human relationships with those we love, how can they still be usable in our relationship with God whom we also love?

If our focus in relationship is only about what we want with no attention given to the other party then we are treating that person as little more than an appliance.

Do we treat God as an equal the way we would treat each other – or like a washing machine in which we insert detergent and dirty clothes and push a button to get clean clothes out?

Faith theology is focused on things – money and miracles – how to get what we want – not relationship – it has no application in regard to relationship.  It is focused on what we “can get” versus deepening our active relationship with God and walking in love.  As such, it offers itself to become the antithesis of healthy relationship with God.

What we want is not always helpful to our relationship with God.  In Luke 17 Jesus heals ten lepers who call out to him for healing, yet after being healed only one returns to give praise to God.

Is it possible that some things that seem always good to us may not be so – but that they might sometimes be hindrances?

Wealth?

After speaking to the rich young man in Matthew 19 Jesus turns to his disciples and says, verse 24, “…it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.”

Health?

Matthew 18:7-9, “Woe to the world because of the things that cause people to sin! Such things must come, but woe to the man through whom they come!  If your hand or your foot causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life maimed or crippled than to have two hands or two feet and be thrown into eternal fire.  And if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell.”

Miracles?

Matthew 7:22  Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?’  I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, evildoers!’

Hebrews 12:1 urges, “…let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”

When we choose to place faith in God there are three categories we can be clear about:  per the demands of Hebrews 11:6 – one; that God exists – two; that He is a rewarder – and three; per the highlight of His promise to Abraham in Romans 4:20, that He keeps His promises.

1)  God exists:  Rom 1:19  “…since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them.   For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities – his eternal power and divine nature – have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.”

2)  He is a rewarder; God’s character is to do good to us:  Jeremiah 29:11  “’For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.’”

3)  God keeps his promises:  Romans 4:18-21  “Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, ‘So shall your offspring be.’  Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead – since he was about a hundred years old – and that Sarah’s womb was also dead.  Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.”

The fourth category, however, is different.  It is not a promise on topics which God initiates, it is a promise about His response to requests we initiate – and there are qualifiers.  Category four must be understood, like the other categories, in connection, balance and context with all scriptures dealing with the same topic.

4)  Ask and it will be given to you:  Matthew 7:7-8  “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who ask receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”

It would be easy to have a long discussion on this category, but it is simpler to say that God will not allow this promise to led in an inappropriate direction either in disregard to His sovereignty or in the excess of our imaginations.  Yet, it is still a promise….  Here are several scriptural qualifiers on this promise:

(1)  Belief – Matthew 21:22  “If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”

(2)  Only good gifts – Matthew 7:9-11  “Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!”

(3)  Agreement – “Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven.”

(4)  To bring glory to God – John 14:13  “And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father.”

(5)  In Jesus name – John 14:14  “You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.”

(6)  If we remain in Him and His words remain in us – John 15:7  “If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you.”

(7)  To bear fruit – John 15:16  ‘You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit – fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.”

(8)  Not with wrong motives – James 4:3  “When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.”

(9)  If we obey His commands – 1 John 3:22  “…and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him.”

(10)  According to His will – 1 John 5:14  “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.”

(11)  If we know He hears us – 1 John 5:15  “And if we know that he hears us – whatever we ask – we know that we have what we asked of him.”

God wants us to ask. (Matthew 7:7-11)  But in relationship we must respect and remember that the same God who loves us and laid down His life for us also has the right to say “no.”  As Jesus with James and John:

Mark 10:35-40  “Then James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came to him. ‘Teacher,’ they said, ‘we want you to do for us whatever we ask.’ ‘What do you want me to do for you?’ he asked. They replied, ‘Let one of us sit at your right and the other at your left in your glory.’ ‘You don’t know what you are asking,’ Jesus said. ‘Can you drink the cup I drink or be baptized with the baptism I am baptized with?’ ‘We can,’ they answered. Jesus said to them, ‘You will drink the cup I drink and be baptized with the baptism I am baptized with, but to sit at my right or left is not for me to grant. These places belong to those for whom they have been prepared.’”

God is our healer.  He has healed many here on Earth, and will continue. (Psalms 103:1-5, Luke 4:18-19)  He has promised us good things, and answered many prayers. (Jeremiah 29:11)  He is not slow to keep His promises. (2 Peter 3:8-9)  But He has not promised all things today.  Today, He promises restored relationship and the fulness of His Holy Spirit to all who receive Him. (Ephesians 1:13-14)  But the redemption of our physical bodies has not yet come. (Romans 8:23)  Many things must come according to His timing which is beyond our complete comprehension. (Isaiah 55:8-9)

If we as children of God were to lay hands on the sick and ask God for and receive healing and miracles for everyone in the entire world, such that we were in a world devoid of pain but still full of sinners, would that be a good thing?  Hatred, violence, laziness, lust, greed but without consequences to indicate anything was wrong?  Would this be better?

We must be careful in our temptation to demand more:

Matthew 12:39  He answered, “A wicked and adulterous generation asks for a miraculous sign! But none will be given it except the sign of the prophet Jonah.”

1 Corinthians 1:22  “Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom, but we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles, but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God.”

What are the identifying concepts of a theology?  Of healthy relationship?

Here are the five identifying concepts of faith theology I have examined – claiming – believing – multiplication/sowing and reaping – repetition – and faith pledges.  In motive and practice I find each to be nothing more than the dressed up desire to “get what I want.”

In exchange consider five concepts in building healthy and love motivated relationships:

Communication:  Isaiah 1:18  “‘Come now, let us reason together,’” says the LORD. “‘Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.’”

Asking:  Matthew 7:7-8  “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who ask receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”

Love:  Galatians 5:13-14  “You, my brothers, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature; rather, serve one another in love. The entire law is summed up in a single command: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”

Honesty:  John 8:32  “…know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

Responsibility:  Philippians 2:4  “Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.”

Matthew 10:39  “Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

In a recent church service the pastor spoke of the tragedy of performing a funeral for a man of great worldly success – great business achievements, wealth, a large house, nice cars.  But when it came to his family, it was difficult for any to speak on his behalf.  He had been purely success oriented in the business and material sense.  He had no deep friendships.  He had given little attention to his family, and the attention he had given had been difficult – he had sought self exultation.  His material achievements would be forgotten and his relationships had not the strength to be remembered with joy.

Father, let our hearts be in relationship…  Matthew 6:21  “For where your heart is, there your treasure will be also.”

Deuteronomy 30:19  “This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live…”

Is Faith Delusional?

Got Jesus?

Like most Christians, I enjoy sharing the “good news”.  I’m not the type that walks up to strangers in the grocery store to ask if they’re “saved” or if they have “accepted Christ as savior” but, in my own way, I share the hope that is in me.  I consider myself to be an analytical person and I enjoy studying philosophy, logic, and “Truth”.  I remember as a kid trying to understand God and wanting to develop a relationship with Him through an increase in knowledge about Him.  I read the Bible, studied science, and listened to older people that I perceived to be wise and successful in life.  I grew in “faith” but I couldn’t say that I knew for sure that there was a God…only that it seemed logical to me and that I thought the evidence for His existence was overwhelming.

Over the years, but especially recently, I have run into people that seem to think that faith in God is delusional.  They think that Christians (and theists in general) have “fooled” themselves into believing in God to satisfy emotional needs or because of ignorance they have been fooled by the money loving preachers into supporting the church and pronouncing faith in God to avoid Hell.  Many of us have witnessed even the most devout atheist call on God when disaster strikes or life gets out-of-control…but that is arguably just another example of a delusional faith.  So is faith delusional?  I think it can be.  I don’t doubt that many people’s faith in God is rooted in fear, or ignorance, or emotional insecurity.  Is there such a thing as a “true faith” that springs forth from reality and not from emotional self-deceit or fear?

The ThinkerI have found that no matter how convincing my arguments or logical my reasoning, people do not typically come to have faith in God because of reason.  Reason may open the door to true faith but without an encounter with God a person will typically continue to live with some doubt of God’s existence…or worse, doubt about God’s love for and interest in them as an individual.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that faith in God is illogical or unreasonable.  On the contrary, I think it is by far the most reasonable assumption and, when thoroughly studied, the only logical conclusion.  Some great examples of the logic and reason I am referring to are detailed in books like Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis, Unshakable Foundations: Contemporary Answers to Crucial Questions about the Christian Faith by Norman Geisler & Peter Bocchino, What’s So Great about Christianity by Dinesh D’Souza, or The End of Reason: A Response to the New Atheists by Ravi Zacharias.  There are literally thousands of examples of such books, many written by graduates of Harvard, Yale, Princeton, Cambridge, and Oxford.  The dilemma is that there are an equal number of books written by equally intelligent authors supporting a case for no God.

lamininThe problem is that many people are trying to prove or disprove God within the realm of the natural world and the bounds of scientific observation.  If God created the Universe(s), then HE was OUTSIDE of the universe(s) at the time of creation.  We may never be able to prove or disprove something that is outside of our ability to “study”.  That may be why theists rarely become atheists from logical discussion and the same reason why atheists rarely become theists because of logical discussions.  There is literally NO END to the arguments for and against God’s existence.  While they are fun to participate in, they usually only lead to frustration and anger for anyone not willing to agree to disagree.

So why do I have faith?  How can I trust that my faith is based in reality?  How can I know that God loves me and knows me specifically?  It is not only because of the reading and thinking I have done.  It is because of what I have experienced.  So here is what I”m going to do.  The rest of this post is going to be used to document my first encounter with God.  I would like any believer that reads this post to please take a minute and share the story of your first encounter with God as well.

I am sharing this not because I think that the knowledge of my experience alone will be enough to bring someone to faith in God…it is, after all, just another bit of knowledge, just another story, and will never be enough to bring someone else to faith.  I do hope, however, that by reading my story, it would encourage some non-believer to consider the possibility of God.  By being open to the possibility, it is my hope that they will seek their own experience with the God of the universe and know Him not as a “logical conclusion” but as a “Father”.  So here goes:

lightbulbMy first encounter with God is not a particularly miraculous story from a “third party observer” standpoint but for me it was an epiphany and redirected the entire course of my life.  The moment I am referring to happened my senior year in high school but let me give you a quick recap of my “religious” life up to that point first.  My parents were both raised Catholic but when I was young they got divorced and my mom married into the Baptist church.  I grew up baptist and learned a lot about God but still had more questions than answers.  In late elementary/early middle school I became convinced of God’s existence, mostly logically, but I do remember submitting my life to Christ and “feeling something”, but as real as it felt to me at the time, I wasn’t sure years later if it was my own emotions or God’s presence.  I felt joy and peace but I didn’t really experience an “epiphany” or anything beyond normal human emotion.  I do remember noticing at that point in my life something very different about the character and confidence of what I considered to be “mature” Christians…something that I hoped I would develop as my relationship with Christ grew.  Things went well for several years and my faith continued to survive…until high school.  I remember being so confused during my high school years by the mixed messages I received at Church, Home, School, at my after school job at Burger King, and from my friends.  I became very short-sighted, selfish, and “base” in my behavior.  My grades were suffering, my relationships with my friends and girlfriend were suffering, and I often felt depressed, confused, and lost.  So that brings me to my senior year….

NaplesHighI was dating a girl named Bethany (now my wife) and I was going to go and see her get inducted into the National Honor Society at our High School.  I had gotten off work late and was unable to make it on time.  I was so disappointed that I missed the event.  As I was walking back out to my pickup truck, I saw my Chemistry teacher in the hallway, leaving for the night.  His name was Phil Short and I highly respected him because of the amazing life he had lived and the way that he treated me and my classmates (no matter how poorly they treated him in return).  He saw me and said “hi” and began talking with me.  Mr Short was a Christian but also a bit of a rebel.  During the course of our conversation he began to share things with me that I had never heard of before, never thought of before, and that resonated with me as Truth (truth claims about creation, Jesus, purpose, eternity,etc).  I started having those old feelings of joy and peace swell up inside me.  We talked for a long time and then Mr. Short said he had to get going.  I walked out to my truck feeling a little confused but a lot hopeful.

My TruckI sat down in my Chevy, closed the door, and looked up at the beautiful, clear, star-filled sky.  I began to talk to God..not like a “prayer” but more like a conversation.  I told Him that if He really existed then I wanted to know Him (something I had done many times before with no noticeable response from God).  I wanted Him to confirm if what I just heard from Mr. Short was true.  I wanted to know if He noticed me and if He had plans for me.  At that moment, as I sat there pleading for God to make Himself known to me, I suddenly felt something I had never experienced before.

I felt completely overcome with what I knew was God’s presence.  It felt like electricity was flowing through my body and like the full power of the universe was pressing in on me.  I felt more peace, and love, and joy, and certainty of God’s presence than I ever thought was possible.  I KNEW it was God.  I KNEW that He loved me.  I KNEW that He had specific plans for me and that He wanted to use me as much as I would allow Him to.  I can’t tell you if the experience lasted for 3 seconds or 30 minutes but as I drove away that night I KNEW that I would NEVER doubt the existence of God or His love for me again.  I recommitted my life to Christ Jesus that night and I am thankful for the light that He has brought into my life every day since then.

Born Again - A New CreationWhen I look back at the history of my life, that was the year my life “started”…the year I was “born again”…the year I became a new creation.  My wife knows better than anyone the transformation that God made in my heart over the next few months.

I still struggle with sin, still have many questions, and still crave His presence, but I don’t doubt that He loves me like a perfect father.

I have only had a handful of experiences like this in my life.  I go sometimes months or even years with nothing but then suddenly God shows up and surrounds me with His presence.  Its not something someone can tell you about or explain to you in a way that will make it real for you.  There isn’t something unique about me that makes God willing to “visit” me but not someone else.  I believe He loves all people the same way.  I believe He is pursuing everyone with the same passion and love.  He is a gentleman though.  He respects our free will…He is after-all the one who gave it to us.  He will not make one person choose him.  He calls us to repentance…but He doesn’t force us.  He loves us while we are sinners.  He loves us as we are.  He has plans for us…according to Jeremiah 29:11 He has “plans for good, and not for evil, to give us a future and a hope”.

This post is getting long so I am going to wrap it up.  If you are a believer, and you consider yourself to have an unneurotic faith, please click “reply” on this post and share your story of the first time you experienced God’s presence and the certainty of His love.

unplugIf you can’t immediately recall having experienced God then please consider turning off your computer, finding a quiet place away from everything, and calling out to God.  I can’t promise that you will feel anything or experience anything…but, it won’t hurt to try.  Remember though, God doesn’t respond well to demands…at least not based on the stories I’ve heard over the years or based on my own experience.  Many people try to say things like “reveal yourself now or I am going to stop believing in you!”  That never worked for me.  I have never heard of anyone (although there may be an exception) hearing from God using that approach.  God seems to respond Psalm 25:8-10 - He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his waybest when we humble ourselves and when we seek Him on His terms.  I may be wrong about this…if others leave their stories we may see something different..after all, God is not a formula…He does as He pleases.   I’ll close with a few verses from the Bible though that seem to support my observations:

Isaiah 66:1-2

1 This is what the LORD says:
“Heaven is my throne,
and the earth is my footstool.
Where is the house you will build for me?
Where will my resting place be?

2 Has not my hand made all these things,
and so they came into being?”
declares the LORD.
“This is the one I esteem:
he who is humble and contrite in spirit,
and trembles at my word.

Daniel 10:11-12

11 He said, “Daniel, you who are highly esteemed, consider carefully the words I am about to speak to you, and stand up, for I have now been sent to you.” And when he said this to me, I stood up trembling.

12 Then he continued, “Do not be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them.

James 4:5-10

5 What do you think the Scriptures mean when they say that the spirit God has placed within us is filled with envy?[a] 6 But he gives us even more grace to stand against such evil desires. As the Scriptures say,

“God opposes the proud
but favors the humble.”[b]

7 So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8 Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world. 9 Let there be tears for what you have done. Let there be sorrow and deep grief. Let there be sadness instead of laughter, and gloom instead of joy. 10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor.

Psalm 25:8-10

8 Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.

9 He guides the humble in what is right
and teaches them his way.

2 Chronicles 33:11-13

11 So the LORD brought against them the army commanders of the king of Assyria, who took Manasseh prisoner, put a hook in his nose, bound him with bronze shackles and took him to Babylon. 12 In his distress he sought the favor of the LORD his God and humbled himself greatly before the God of his fathers. 13 And when he prayed to him, the LORD was moved by his entreaty and listened to his plea; so he brought him back to Jerusalem and to his kingdom. Then Manasseh knew that the LORD is God.

Psalm 18:27-28

27 You save the humble
but bring low those whose eyes are haughty.

28 You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness into light.

Writing this post has made me realize that I have let my relationship with God grow lax. I have let my focus drift to the stresses of life and my plans for myself and my family. I have been craving His presence for many months but haven’t taken time to humble myself before Him and “seek His face“. I am going to a men’s retreat in a couple weeks with some close friends of mine. Hopefully I will hear from God that weekend….or sooner.

As this week of Thanksgiving approaches, please consider carving out some time to be alone with the Lord. And, in the spirit of the Love Dare, if you are married with children, consider watching your kids and providing some quiet time for your spouse too. Blessings, Anthony


Contrast: Nidal Hasan vs Pervaiz Masih

I was doing my routine scan of today’s headlines and stumbled across a video on CNN that I think is the ultimate contrast to the recent events at Fort Hood.  Instead of a wealthy, educated, Jihadist targeting non-Muslims, this story is about a poor, illiterate, Christian saving Muslims – both died living out their faith.  Not sure if it fits in with the other content on this site but I thought it was worth passing on:

Here is another video I found on YouTube (not in English but gives a better view of what that day was like):

Just for reference…here is a video of the massacre at Fort Hood: